I welcome a new day with a new blog post. I just washed the dishes, made coffee and cookies, and now I’m meeting my birthday. It so happened that I do not celebrate this so-called holiday at all, and no one knows about it except my parents and sisters. It will be the same this year. Because every day is a holiday for me, especially at this period I am happy waking up again after sleep.
The 278th day of the war in 2022 and Ukraine is one more day closer to victory. Such a countdown pleases me, although I want everything to end right now, according to my one wish.
My life has turned into a constant reflection what I will do and how I will do when all civilization’s achievements disappear after the next massive attack. From every corner, everyone is talking about the fact that the next shutdown of electricity, heat and water is a matter of time and it will definitely happen in the coming days.
The last time I sat without anything was around a day. I gained new emotions and experience, although it was not the first time I had a similar situation. The next blackout may last longer, much longer.
My whole life is connected with the Internet, the computer. If the connection and the light disappear, I find myself at a crossroads: write or look for new options for earning. I will last a few more days, but more than a week without means of communication will be critical for me.
I am looking for ways, I am interested in how I can realize myself without electricity and communication. I do not rule out that this road will lead me to the very front…
I already wrote that this scenario is quite possible and does not reach any of my contradictions. I am not a military man, but I can defend my land not only with words or online activities. If my condition reaches a certain point of no return, if certain conditions and circumstances arise – then these posts сould quite possibly turn into front notes.
Yesterday was the first visit to my site from a search engine. Someone found me in Poland and came across a post about the song Posmakuj. I am happy for him and for myself.
I continue to write. Many. I also spend time on translation, but in this way I also learn English and improve my Ukrainian.
Yesterday I started actively looking for writers’ resources. Surprisingly, the main part is located abroad. We have an absolutely empty space in Ukraine, there are so few sites that it is a bit awkward and lonely.
But on one of them I managed to publish my first work, a small impromptu – Stepan. Maybe I’ll leave some of my works here on this site, or maybe I’ll find something else.
What am I looking on these sites for?
First, the literary community.
Secondly, I want to have an idea of what the literary world is like now, especially in Ukraine.
Thirdly, I want to stay in letters not only on my website, but to look for an audience from other sources, to interact.
While drinking coffee, I watched a bit of the series “Mr. Robot”. And there the following phrase sounded:
Communication is the key. Live human communication
There is very little of that in my life now. My circle is quite limited and even those who remain mostly do not want to leave the virtual space.
“Why call when you can write?”
“Why meet when you can record a voice message?”
“Why answer when you can respond with a smiley, emoji or sticker?”
These phrases will never convince me of the live communication freshness and flawlessness, face-to-face meetings. I will never make the same mistake (choice) that most have made in the last ten years.
The world is getting tighter, people are hiding in their cells, protecting their fears and public inviolability
Yes, I’m exaggerating a bit, but the trend towards virtual life surprises even me, who spent most of my life in front of a monitor.
Today is an unusual blog. Today I give free rein to my fingers and thoughts, without a plan for the text. Ordinary people on their birthdays make some summaries, some gather companies, have fun until the morning. And my existence begins and ends with writing, reading, small household chores, and studying. Everything is so simple and diverse at the same time.
Until I catch the next thought by the tail, which I can type here, I will go watch the series and deal with other texts and translations.
Everything will definitely work out for me
