Today I published my 100th post on this blog.
It took me a little more than 4 months.
First days, I devoted maximum time and attention to the site, later other projects were added, which gradually took my resources, so new pages appeared more and more slowly.
During these 4 months, a lot and nothing happened at the same time.
How is that possible?
It’s very simple: I can both be satisfied with the work done, see many interesting individual moments, certain progress, local successes, and see the relative constancy of my existence, because nothing has changed in me globally.
It’s a paradox that always annoys me a little, but doesn’t throw me off balance. Fantasy and conscious self-esteem keeps me in good trim.
My desire to write and develop my blog has not disappeared, it adapts and transforms in new conditions. I have problems with discipline always, and forcing myself to do something has never worked for me.
I am looking for alternative paths to my optimal writing state. It is not about inspiration, but about the stability of one’s desire to create. Now it is, and I am writing, tomorrow my attention may become hostage to some other “more important” matter. So far, I haven’t managed it with my schedule, but I’m not giving up hope it will happen someday.
Is 100 created pages (articles, texts) on the site a lot or not? If I also count other I have not yet published (and there are at least 50 documents), and also the translation into English, then I get quite an attractive number, which reassures me.
I can’t say I’ve achieved anything with it, but I also can’t deny my writing and blogging activity, which materialized into several hundred conscious texts, seasoned with videos and photos. I did something these 4 months and I left something in these one hundred blog posts.
I will keep writing.
I will continue to post articles and my prose on the site.
I have not just a desire, but quite specific topics, both in artistic format and as blog pages.
Everything will be Ukraine!
